Monthly Archives: September 2010

100 Things I Love Project: #10 – Being a Geek

Mirriam-Webster Online defines a geek as a:

1 : a carnival performer often billed as a wild man whose act usually includes biting the head off a live chicken or snake

2: a person often of an intellectual bent who is disliked

3:an enthusiast or expert especially in a technological field or activity <computer geek>

While I am definitely not the first, and I sincerely hope I am not the second, the 3rd is probably the closest “official” definition that I can come to, regarding my own brand of geekiness.

My own definition of geek is this: A person who likes something so much that he/she spends a lot of effort into knowing everything there is to know about said something and can rattle off a random fact, figure or trivia about that certain something to other people, whether they ask for it or not. (so maybe that’s why Mirriam-Webster came out with the 2nd definition of geek)

I, for one, revel in my geekness. Just some random facts about my different geekdoms

* I’m such a Tolkien geek that I once convinced my then-boss (who was also an LOTR fan) to host and organize the premiere of Return of the King. And I’ve read each Tolkien book at least more than 3x. I still have not reached the level of geekness that some people are in (speaking and writing in Elvish, knowing ALL the Middle Earth names and naming their children after Middle Earth characters, having role-playing games, etc) but among my “normal” friends, I may be the expert when it comes to the subject

* I cannot help but buy a book whenever I go into a bookstore, whether or not I’ve finished all the 20 or so books that I previously bought but have not read. I feel the books screaming at me when I go out without buying anything so I just have to. And no matter how heavy my bag is, there has to be at least one book in there or else I feel like my bag is empty

* I am such a newly-converted football geek that I spend hours just reading about leagues and clubs and players and best of lists. And since I know only 2 1/2 people who would appreciate all this knowledge, I had to create a secret tumblr site where I could share this with other football-obsessed people. And I recently discovered that most of them are around 15 years old. But who cares?

* Only a music geek would have more than 100 gigs of music that has to be manually and painstakingly arranged by artist, album, and sometimes even genre and they all have to have album covers. I thank ITunes for making this easier on me, but I still have to sometimes the urge to do it on my own

* TV shows cannot escape my geekness. Before the advent of downloading and when Channel 9 and Studio 23 were the only channels that showed quality, foreign shows, I religiously followed the TV shows I put in my planner. And people know that when Buffy or The X-Files was on, you cannot talk to me. Currently, I have a schedule of the date and time when I should download new eps. And friends constantly ask me for new show recommendations and downloads, and I gladly bestow my “expertise” on them

*I know random facts about movies even if I haven’t seen them yet (or at all) because I just have to say something about movies when it comes up in conversations

And yes, the way I’ve rattled on and on about my different geekdoms is proof enough that I am a proud card-carrying member of the new breed of geeks

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Posted by on September 26, 2010 in 100 Things I Love


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Love that Goes Beyond Dirty Dishes and Unpaid Bills

Disclaimer: No, I am not talking about a guy. Technically

I was just about to write a long, rant letter, telling you of all my resentments and frustrations of the past months and how I feel that we should re-think this whole setup that we have. I had a killer closing line even: The love that I used to feel for both of you is now turning into an emotion that I don’t dare describe yet, but it is definitely far from love.

And then I walk into the office this morning and an Angel (in both name and in other ways) told me to read the latest Deeper Walk email devotion because it’s another one of those “” entries.

And then, like a douse of cold water. it hit me big time. Let me just quote this beautiful paragraph

“This love that surpasses knowledge also surpasses all of the limits and conditions we find ourselves placing on what we love. “All the Lord’s people” is something broader and more beautiful than we can possibly grasp, and the height and depth and width and length of this love (this love that binds us), does not rest on our church building or our skin, but settles only in the deepest caverns of the human spirit.”

You are far from being a part of my “church family”, but you are family in the truest non-biological sense of the word. And as with family, you HAVE TO love them no matter what, even if things turn ugly, even if things don’t go the way you want it to go, even the most unlovable parts of us, we HAVE TO love.

Because that’s the way God loves me. Through years of stubborn-headedness and apathy and indifference and downright disobedience, He still loved me.

How dare then I deny that kind of love to you?

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Posted by on September 8, 2010 in i get so emotional baby


Finding an Unseen God by Alice Britt Chloe

I am still in the process of reading one of the simplest but most beautifully written non-fiction books I’ve ever read (so far). I cannot yet fully express how much her writing has affected me, in just a few short chapters. So while I’m still not yet done, I’ll let her words speak for her first. (and yes, she was a former atheist, which makes her even more awesome)

“In many ways, it would be a relief to once again chalk these atrocities up to the human condition alone; to return to a worldview that would deliver me from wondering where God was and what prayer does. But for me, and other sincere people of faith, the tension remains.

Over the years though, I have experienced a glorious discovery. There is treasure in the tension. The struggle is a doorway. Sincerity in the quest ushers us mysteriously across the threshold and on the other side is – not answers – but knowing. On the other side is intimacy.”

Alicia Britt Chloe, Finding an Unseen God

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Posted by on September 6, 2010 in Uncategorized


Only for a moment…

I can still see it so clearly in my head, it’s scary and funny and peaceful all at the same time.

I rush home to work after another challenging day reading and writing about books. I open the door, take a deep breath, ready for the chaos that will greet me

Then I see him sitting in his favorite chair, reading a book as always. He looks up, smiles, then goes back to his book while asking me the usual “how was your day?” questions

I am not offended, coz that’s how he has always been and that’s one of the reasons I fell in love with him

I sit beside him, put my feet on his lap and he absent mindedly starts rubbing them, knowing how I need it everyday

I remind him that I have to wake up at 2AM because Liverpool has a game, and he smirks and snickers, “Gads, you’re such a geek!”. This coming from the man who has read Lord of the Rings a hundred times.

Then I hear the sound of small feet on the stairs and I brace myself for a hug attack


A 4 year old bundle of joy rushes into my arms and peppers me with her never-ending questions, never waiting for answers, just needing to get the words out of her preternaturally curious head

“’Do we really have to take a nap in the afternoon to grow taller? Didn’t you take naps when you were a kid? Why do I have to wait til I’m 6 to go to a real school? If we don’t believe in Santa Claus but others kid believe in him, will he become real someday? Why does my playmate not have a TV in his house? How will he know what will happen to Dora next? How come all kids have to eat their veggies but you don’t have to?”

I inhale her lemongrass scent and try to make sense of her questions, but I know I never will be able to answer them all to her satisfaction. And so I just breathe her in

He reminds me that maybe it’s time to eat already. But wait, I have to check my email and my tumblr and tweet all the new questions that our lovely-but-suddenly-becoming-rambunctious-due-to-chocolates-she-consumed daughter

Okay, so he then reluctantly leaves his book and drags her to the kitchen while reminding me, “15 minutes only please”. My heart swells because I prayed for someone who totally gets me. He does totally get me. Most of the time at least.

As I hear the rattling of the plates and spoons and forks, I wonder how I became so blessed. And then I tweet that exact sentence.

As we sit down the table, I smell the coffee brewing in the background and I listen to her incessant chatter and watch him lovingly look at her. My fork falls to the floor and I automatically pick it up.

When I get up, I realize that the table is empty. The room is filled with me, my coffee, my thoughts. No one else

And my heart breaks just a little for me and the family that lived in my head for those few minutes.

And then I remembered that this is the path I have chosen. And I smile because I remember too that I am happy for the silence and the peace that comes with it.

They lived but only for a moment. There was a twinge, but only for a moment. And in that moment, like all the times before, I cried out to God. And He heard me and gave me the peace that surpasses understanding.


Posted by on September 5, 2010 in i get so emotional baby


100 Things I Love Project: #9 – Making Mixed CDs

Whether you’re a really good friend or just a mere acquaintance, it gives me great joy to make mixed CDs or playlists for you.

Back when it was still cassette tapes (yes children, there was life before CDs and mp3s), I would painstakingly record my favorite songs from the radio, complete with DJ interrupting the song to make some inane remark. That’s why I am eternally grateful to the Moving Picture Experts Group who apparently came up with the mp3 format, because they have truly revolutionized my life

With the advent of mp3s, itunes and CD burners, I’ve become a big fan of making playlists for those who ask for them or even if you don’t ask for it and I just feel like you would benefit from some of the songs I constantly listen to. I’m your very own itunes genius playlist; just tell me which artists you normally listen to and I can create a whole CD of similar sounding / same genre songs for you.

I also find it fun to introduce artists and songs that I love to people who’ve never heard of them before. I’m not one of those elitists who want to keep good music away from the masses and all to themselves.

And chances are, in my humble opinion, you would love my playlists. Unless you are a hiphop/r&b/bubblegum pop kind of person. Then you would probably throw away the CD I gave you, which is too bad, coz you’re missing out on a chance to level up your musical horizons.

So just give me a holler if you want one. My more than 100 gigs of music is not just for my listening pleasure you know

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Posted by on September 2, 2010 in 100 Things I Love


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